riders on the storm

“‘Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.” – Jim Morrison

It feels a bit odd to quote The Lizard King but with the recent passing of The Doors keyboardist Ray Manczerak, I have been spinning some Doors as of late. Jim was indeed a poet.

There is a profound empowerment in feeling powerless once fear is shed. The letting go.

What matters most isn’t matter itself. We are all mortal beings and no more important than the spider crawling quietly in the corner of the shower. We are all squashable.

Our complex relationship with Mother Nature is borne of this dichotomy and the very realness that, in the end, Mother Nature will always prevail.

Floods, tornadoes, earthquakes, hurricanes come and go. They steal lives, destroy our homes, and while we know they will come again, we rebuild. But in the end, Mother Nature always prevails.

Genetically manipulate our food supply? Mother Nature will find a way to circumvent this and wreak havoc with our attempt to quite literally reshape living organisms.

And what of disease? Most specifically cancer? We have indeed been able to change the course of history, save untold lives and eradicate many lethal diseases. But again, we remain fragile vulnerable beings and Mother Nature finds a way to remind us we are but mere mortals.

What I am learning about cancer has continued to rock my world as we enter a new era. One of the most promising developments is that we are learning not to fight with the forces of nature (think of the mayhem hewn by our creation of The Dust Bowl with shortsighted farming practices combined with an unfortunate series of weather events) but to work with nature in partnership to alter the course of the genetic mutations which cause cancer in the first place using the body’s own natural defense mechanisms. After all, Cancer is us.

In the meantime I prepare for surgery #4 to remove a growing cyst and more tumor growth as the chemotherapy was not taking.

There are some intriguing options we continue to explore and will know more after tomorrow.

I remain focused and strong – perhaps even more so after reflection upon all things natural and powerful. Mother Nature fill my heart.

“Born a poor young country boy
Mother Nature’s son
All day long I’m sitting singing songs for everyone.

Sit beside a mountain stream
See her waters rise
Listen to the pretty sound of music as she flies.

Find me in my field of grass
Mother Nature’s son
Swaying daises sing a lazy song beneath the sun.

Mother Nature’s son.” – The Beatles


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8 Responses to Embarkation

  1. Sue Bingaman says:

    Please know that we are thinking about you and are cheering you on…along with so many others who care about you. Hoping you feel the power of the support that radiates further than you can imagine in words said and unsaid.
    Keep writing… helping yourself and helping all of us to understand more completely what you are experiencing. I wish you did not have to go through this. Ride the wave!
    Warmest regards and every good thought be with you,
    Sue and Chuck Bingaman

  2. humanekt says:

    As always, Mark, you leave me thinking and feeling and contemplating and appreciating. So much love to you. xoxo

  3. Nancie & Steve says:

    May all go smoothly today! You’re in our thoughts and in our hearts!!
    We love you, Greenie! xxx

  4. Jonathan Jesup says:

    All our love and strength we send your way Mark. Love Jon and Mary

  5. Ellen says:

    All the best with surgery #4. I’ll be thinking of you and sending positive thoughts your way. Take care.

  6. Beth Nikles says:

    We, your other family, our Preservers, are “Holding you in the Light!” Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your loved ones as you all venture forth, making yet another imprint in your overflowing Book of Life,…… in support of you and each other. Just know, our Mark, that we love you! Come on to your lake and heal here with us! You are such an inspiration to all of us! God has given you so many special gifts, not the least of which is your brilliant ability to write. You are an inspiration to all of us! Keep on writing, keep on fighting, keep on being you…the incredible unique, indomitable, wonderful larger than life Mark…….lour Mark! We love you. Big hugs and kisses! Your Preservers! Xoxoxo

  7. Laurie Fichter says:

    Mark, you say it and play it so well. You are, indeed, an inspiration- xox Laurie

  8. Allene Lubin says:

    praying for you. sending love. Alli

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